Amelia, If Only: A Sapphic YA Romance About Friendship, Unexpected Love, and Self-Discovery

#1 New York Times bestselling author Becky Albertalli (Simon vs. the Homo Sapiens Agenda and Imogen, Obviously) is back with another novel of crushes, friendships, and finding love in unexpected places. A 2026 Rainbow Book List pick! Amelia Applebaum isn’t in love with Walter Holland. He just happens to be her favorite moderately famous, chaotically bisexual YouTuber. Who she just happened to invite to prom. (But it’s fine. No, for real. If you delete the post, it didn’t happen.)Okay, maybe her friends are right: She’s slightly parasocially infatuated. But Amelia just knows sparks would fly—if only she could connect with Walter for real.If only he would host a meet and greet.If only it were just a short road trip away.And if only Amelia could talk her best friends into making it the perfect last hurrah before graduation—even her newly single, always-cynical, guitar-toting best friend Natalie.One thing’s for sure: All roads lead to butterflies.But what if Amelia’s butterflies aren’t for Walter at all?Friends to Lovers: She thinks this road trip is about her YouTuber crush. Her guitar-playing best friend knows it’s about something more.Bisexual Representation: A laugh-out-loud story featuring a chaotically bisexual heroine trying to figure out if her feelings are real, parasocial, or somewhere in between.Fandom and Fan Culture: A hilarious and heartfelt dive into the world of YouTubers, fan conventions, and the shipper wars that define a generation.A Perfect Last Hurrah: This funny coming of age story captures the final adventures before graduation and the bittersweet feeling of starting a new chapter. Read more